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If you already haven’t figured it out yourself, or have been a little oblivious, I’ve been single for nearly 2.5 months after being in a relationship for 5 years. Suddenly without that security blanket, suddenly all alone, its hard to reproritise your life now that you’re thinking for yourself only. People tell you it will get better and I’ll get used to it soon, but it’s such a surreal feeling to know someone whom you loved so much is now a complete stranger. Since the break up, I’ve been telling myself to try new things, experience new things, do the things I may have wanted to do before but couldn’t. In the midst of everything, of course I’ve made mistakes, of course I may have done things without thinking but I don’t have any regrets. I believe we should only ever regret something we didn’t do or didn’t say because why regret something that a part of you (even if it’s so miniscule) wanted to do or say? You shouldn’t need to explain yourself why you do the things you do and one thing I’ve been getting a lot is people saying it’s time to think for myself. “You can be the ripest, juciest peach in the world, and there’s still going to be someone who hates peaches.” Why spend your life impressing others when this is your life? In a short two months, I have been judged for some of the things I’ve done, or said but each and every thing I’ve done and said is something I wanted to. Just this morning I have done something I would never thought I’d do, and I slipped a note to a cute guy giving him my number and asking him out for coffee, and some may call it desperate, some may say it’s too early- but really, I’m trying to learn more about myself, love me for who I am and have become and go out of my comfort zone because it’s better to try and fail than fail to try. So what I’m trying to say is that I’m doing okay. And we shouldn’t be living our lives to impress others because no matter what we do, someone will judge us, so you might as well do something that makes you happy. If not now, then when? Life will not wait for you to live it. So go and live it. #long #essay #thoughts
57/100 - Some personalized letters I made for some very special people. #thankyoucards #vivs100happydays #100happydays
38/100 - Casual calling. Three assessments due next week and here I am going out. Super stressed but enjoying the sun ^-^ #feelsweirdgoingoutcarryingonlythisandaphone #ilooklikeaboy #vivs100happydays #100happydays
34/100 - Boo! He’s kinda beautiful. #pepper #cat #catselfie #catsofinstagram #vivs100happydays #100happydays
All Laced Up (by Vi W)I’m back! 




#asos #cami #theiconic #boots #spurr #black
Strength

I tell myself that I need to be strong. I tell myself that there is no one to impress but yourself and the most important person you’ll ever love is yourself. I tell myself that every time things get hard, I can pick myself up because it’s only going to get easier the next time.

But future me never tells me that it actually gets harder and harder.

We tell ourselves what doesn’t kill us makes us stronger, but we always seem to have to go through hell first. You know, there are days where I suddenly get sad and think about all the sad things that have happened to me and it’s as if my brain just decided to spontaneously screw my heart over and pour all these thoughts into my mind and my pounding heart begins to sting a little each time I breathe. 

I don’t know what I’m sad about. Is there ever really one reason anyway? I don’t want to talk about it, nor do I even know where to start if I were to. Or maybe that’s just an excuse because I don’t want to face my emotions. I think what bugs me is when people see me as someone “strong”. I’ve had people who tell me I’m one of the strongest people they know. Muscles aside, what makes me so ‘strong’?

Have I been through a lot in life? Yes. Have I had to deal with things that a normal twenty year old wouldn’t have to? Perhaps. 

But I have a roof over my head, I have an education, I have a Mom. What makes me “strong”? I wonder if we all had to write down a list of all the bad things that have happened to us- the breakups, the losses, etc etc, how do we compare who’s the stronger one, the one who dealt with more bad things in their life?

Everyone reacts to situations differently and I think as long as you are reading this right now, no matter what you have or have not been through, you, are, strong. So give yourself a pat on the back tomorrow morning, because you have survived another day in your life. Remember the hardest battles are with yourself, so give yourself strength before you take on the world.

Burn Out (by Vi W)


#white #black #monochrome #theiconic #bralet #lace #converse
Rhythmic Tulips (by Vi W)


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Back To You (by Vi W)


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#catlady #sorrynotsorry #finallyunpacking #cats #catserrthangcats
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